A Hard Day

A hard day of doubting, worrying, wondering how this is all going to work out.  I have to remember that God will give light enough for the next step, and most likely the light will not shine beyond that.  It seems to be His way.  And I have to trust that He knows best.
  An email with 11 attachments from our adoption agency.  So much to get done.  I panicked and started sweating bullets when that came through last night.  Our parent co-ordinator emailed us today and told us just to do the first 3 things on the list....all three of those are just simple forms.  Everything else, we will go over in our intake interview on August 3rd.  I can not believe we are doing this!!!!!
  The rest of life continues on here.  We are getting Anna ready to leave for Africa on Sept 8th.  She goes downtown to file for a background check tomorrow.  Her ears are still not doing super great, although they aren't any worse then they were when it all started last December.  We aren't quite sure where to turn next.  The Dr. last week said she should be seeing improvement with the allergy meds and the do's and don'ts he gave her for the TMJ.  But she isn't noticing a big difference.
    Ellie changed her room around today.....she is getting ready to share it with our girl when she arrives from Hungary.  That will be months from now.....but Ellie is having a good time "dreaming" about it.
  That's it for tonight.  I have the forms in my folder to bring to work with me tomorrow and will start filling them out on my break time.  For now,  it's off to bed to give my brain a rest.