We just sent in our official contract to the new agency in Washington so we can officially go forward with this adoption.  I have been dragging my feet for the last month and a half, wondering how I can handle one more child etc... etc...and a special needs one at that. Over and over, God gives us whisperings that we are to move forward. I finally realized that God is not going to remove every shred of doubt...because then no faith would be needed.  The bottom line is that we can't get our girl out of our minds and hearts.  We already feel like we love her as one of our own. 
   If one of our biological children were stuck in another country,  we would do everything in order to go get them and bring them home.  We would do whatever footwork, we would wade through whatever red tape, we would empty our savings, we would face fears, we wouldn't worry about what we would need to do once we were home.  If their language had been stripped from them and they had had a disability inflicted upon them, if they would need therapy and medical attention upon arriving home, we would do it in a heartbeat.   We must do the same for Rebekah.  We feel empty when we talk of not getting her.  That in itself can be taken as God's direction.  But He has been gracious to give us many more confirmations then just that.  I take my eyes off of God so easily. Sigh.
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